TODAY

today i felt as though i were living in a room filled with endless fog.

i was/am depressed.

i clean when i am depressed, our house looks great.

i cried or got choked up every time A said mommy or mom, even when G called me daddy or buddy the tears came.

i am lucky to have those 2

school was cancelled tonight for obvious reasons and dave had a late class. the kids ran crazy and i read 150 pages in a book. not the normal, but, the kids enjoyed it.

i have never had a day where silence was deafening and being alone was scary.

today was that day. i have a vision in my head, a morbid one that i wish would go away.

i am hoping with a new day, a new mood will follow.

"promise me you'll always remember your braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think" -christopher robin